its hopeless.

lately alot has been happening internally. i've been thinking about alot of stuff lately. i'm so sick of the way things have turned out i have a big heart and i deserve to have someone to give it too. but i guess things can't always go your way. for now i'm just going to concentrate on me. i've lost 11.2 pounds so far, and i'm thrilled. random but i figured i'd say something positve before i start rambling on dramatic bullshit. i'm really low tonight, and i have no clue why. i guess i'm just having internal conflicts. i feel like i always get the short end of the stick. i'm underappreciated, and i give all to everyone else to have nothing given back. i guess thats just the way life is sometimes. eventually things will get better...they have to i hope. tomorrow i have a doctors appointment and i should be doing my homework but i don't feel like it. go radio's song why i'm home is an amazing song. it just made me cry. it has some really amazing lyrics.

well i guess i'll stop with the emotional bs.


goodnight buzznet.
xoxo, s.