alots been on my mind lately, everythings changing. its weird. i feel like i'm growing up. i want to grow up and get into the real world. but idk. i have no idea what i even want to do with my future. i want a job in mass communications, or fashion. but i just don't know. i feel like i should know all of this by now.. but i guess i'll figure it out in time. i feel like theres so many things that need to be done all the time. i am saving up money, and i'm trying to get my license soon. i want to be more independent, and i think i am... but then again. idk...lately i feel so alone. i want someone to spend time with. all my friends have someone now, and i feel like i'm all alone and i'm going to be that way forever. but whatever i knw i will eventually find someone. i'm just so picky. 

anyways.....today was fun. i woke up and b came over for a little bit. then mom and i went to go get our naily's done beacuse my cousin is getting married saturday. after that i went over to sydney's grandma's to lay out and tan a little bit. after that i came home had dinner with mom&dad then hungout with alan, haley, and cammie. it was fun. i really miss haley. i wish we could hangout more...tomorroow night is the wedding rehersal dinner. hopefully it will be an eventful night filled with margarita's and lots of laughs. saturday is the ceremony, and the reception. open bar! makes me happy. sunday's fathers day! sounds like i'm going to be busy for quite awhile. but that makes me happy. i like to go go go! i'm back on my diet, and i hope everything works out. because i really need to get in good shape. 

well anyways i think i'm gonna go lay down.

next weekend is training for work, and the weekend after that is my first day. i hope i meet some new people. i'm sick of this town and everyone in it. its rediculous. i've never liked it here. oh wells. 

i want to die my hair darker. but i don't want to until i'm tan. oh what to do what to do. 

that's all for now.

chow beautiful people.

anyways today was stressful. school started back and i had to wake up at the ass crack of dawn. it was gay, after school i went grocery shopping with my mom, and then my fucking nose ring fell out, and because its a screw i couldn't get it back in. so dad took me up to underground ink to get it back in. the guy up there was really nice, and did it for me. now it hurts like a bitch. i wish there was a new gossip girl tonigght but the new episode doesn't come on until 420 but atleast the hills comes on. i missed the 1st episode, but i'm about to watch it online. after that i'm going to watch my recorded episodes of keeping up with the kardashians, and take a bubble bathy. 

tonight shall be relaxing.

:] see you later buzzneto!

xoxo, sammy.

pce buzznet.

:] xoxo, slammy.

today i was sitting in the car listening to jasey rae, by all time low. i've known the song for years, and i thought i knew the meaning of the lyrics, but today for some reason i had to look them up, and honestly it was like the song was a totally new song for me. it's always been one of my very favorite songs ever but now its crazy what it did to me inside. in a good wayy. it tugged on my heart strings. lately i've had a bunch of confusion going on in my head, i didn't know what i wanted, and i don't know. but today i figured out alot. nothing major at all happened but i guess it was the little stuff. song lyrics, a random txt, and a tear jerker with my bestfriend. for once it all made since. 

but now it's time to go attempt to study for my math test tomorrow.

wish me luck.

later buzznet.

xoxo, sammy.